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My darkest day

“I want to die” Was the thought going through my head, over and over again, on repeat. I was 21 years old, and life was hard. I was lying in the middle of the street at 3 in the morning, and I was intoxicated. I had been going out drinking with my friends, and IContinue reading “My darkest day”

Dont THINK, just DO.

So being brave despite fearing a negative result is easier than I expected. For years I wanted to do something that matters to me, but I feared failing, so I didn’t. Being a streamer, and starting a blog was all unreachable dreams, that my fear held me back from. In my mind, I kept thinking.Continue reading “Dont THINK, just DO.”

Being on Welfare. Feeling restless today

I’ve been feeling restless today, and that happens a lot with me, when I don’t have a lot to do. I’m on welfare and have been since I was 21. I’m not in the normal welfare system as most, I’m in box number 2 as the state calls it. What is box number 2? Let’sContinue reading “Being on Welfare. Feeling restless today”

My Gypsy Family

My mom grew up in Serbia in a small gypsy village. Everyone in that town is somewhat related and they all know each other. I remember when I came down to visit every summer, and was walking down the street, I was invited in by strangers who told me, hey I’m family come eat withContinue reading “My Gypsy Family”

My Gypsy Christmas

So today the 8th of January, is the day my family celebrate their version of Christmas. My family on my moms side live in Serbia, in a small gypsy village. More information about them will be in another blog post I’m posting after this post They are all orthodox Catholics How do we celebrate Christmas?Continue reading “My Gypsy Christmas”

How do you deal with negative thoughts?

According to scientists we have around 12000 to 70000 thoughts a day, most of them are negative thoughts. When I think of my own thought pattern this rings true, but how do you control your thoughts if they turn negative, how do you address them. For me when It comes to thinking I have aContinue reading “How do you deal with negative thoughts?”

World of Warcraft

I started playing World of Warcraft in November 2007. Burning crusade had been released in January the same year. I’ve been watching my boyfriend and his friends play and something about the game spoke to me. I just had to try it for myself, and that’s where Faydra was born. A Bloodelf Retribution Paladin. IContinue reading “World of Warcraft”

Highly Sensitive Personality.

A few years ago, I had a mentor, who came by to help me with practical things in my life. I had recently been diagnosed with a few personality disorders, one of them was borderline, but according to my psychiatrist I only had partial borderline. My mentor came to visit one day and asked meContinue reading “Highly Sensitive Personality.”

My childhood memories

I don’t remember much from when I was 5 years old, what I do remember is a few glimpses of something I’ve been trying to piece together over the last few years. My earliest memory is me on my mom’s lap and she is rocking me to sleep, humming a song. I remember I feelContinue reading “My childhood memories”

Goodbye 2019 Ill miss ya

Its almost the end of 2019. Its tradition to make new year resolutions, but is there a tradition to self reflect on the year that has gone by? What did 2019 bring you ? Ive learned one thing from my 34 years of life and that is time goes by fast, every year comes andContinue reading “Goodbye 2019 Ill miss ya”