Better Late than Never…

Here goes…

So, its been a long time since I have written anything.

Too long.

And its not because I didn’t have anything to write about.

Its actually been the opposite.

I struggle to write now, because I have no idea about where to start.

I have a million things to get off my chest.

But I just couldn’t write until I was ready to announce the news I am about to write about today.

My life has changed again.

This time its big.

Like life changing big.

Its so big, that everything I’ve worked for, and the dreams I wanted to achieve, I have had to put on hold, for a long time.

It no longer makes sense to work on gaming You tube Videos or even start an education right now.

At least not yet.

So, what is the big news.

Well, here goes.

I’m Pregnant…

And yes, I’m very thrilled about this.

But a part of me is also a little bit terrified.

I turn 40 years next month, and in 3 months he will be here.

My son.

Yes, I am a bit further along.

In a few days ill be entering my third trimester.

So yes, my life has changed.

I have changed.

I still feel like I have to pinch my arm to make sure I don’t wake up from a really realistic dream.

I still can’t believe how much everything has changed.

For years I’ve wanted this, but I thought I was too old, and that ship had sunk.

I didn’t dare to dream, and even when I decided to try almost 2 years ago, a part of me didn’t really think I could achieve this.

But yet, here I am.

27 weeks and 3 days along.

And my son is actively kicking in there to remind me I am not dreaming.

The unachievable is still a possibility.

Its been a crazy journey these last few years, of amazing things happening in my life, heartbreaks, turn of events, and big surprises.

I feel like I’ve lived more in these last 2 years, than I have lived in the decade before, and every time, I feel my joyful roller coaster of a life has stopped spinning, it starts again.

I have to figure out who I am now, what makes sense for me to chase in the future, what aligns with my life and who I am now, and what doesn’t make the cut.

Ill have to rebrand, if I start You Tube again, and ill have to rethink my website eventually, which I never finished.

For now, all my focus is on my son, and my life as a mother again.

Its a short post today, but I had to just start.

And ill soon return to write about the ups and downs, and everything in between.

I’m sorry its been a while.

I can truly say that I’ve missed this.

But I just couldn’t write until I felt ready.

I didn’t expect it to take months to do so, but better late than never, right? 😊

Ill be back with more posts soon.

I promise ❤

Missfaylyn Out