Finding Balance

I’ve never been good at creating balance in my life.

I either do things in extremes or not at all

Ill give you an example.

My videos and Creative work

When I feel inspired or passionate, I can work on my videos from the minute I get up until late morning, sometimes I even worked well past noon.

When I feel any kind of passion for anything I work hard, not noticing that I’m hungry or tired, and forget my other responsibilities.

I go into super drive and end up feeling burned out.

On the other side of the coin, there are days where I find it hard to stay motivated. I get easily distracted and if the passion and enthusiasm isn’t there then it feels forced when I try to do any kind of work.

This can take months where I find it almost impossible to do any work.

I get annoyed when I can’t work. I have a constant need to be creative, to learn and expand, and I’m not fun to be around when I’m in this mood.

Constantly going around with the intense feeling of restlessness.

My social life.

This is pretty much the same, I either do it in extremes or not at all.

Always find it hard to balance.

There are days where I want to be around people all day and night long, and rarely tire of this.

I can feel I get overstimulated, and overwhelmed by constant social interaction, but I push that feeling aside, because the drive to remain social is higher.

I constantly seek out others company, because I mostly need my mind to be stimulated by others’ ideas, and to learn from their perspective.

I like feeling needed in my friend’s group and create fun little events or just be entertained playing games with them online.

Then the other side of the coin.

When the feeling of overwhelm and overstimulation every day, starts getting harder to ignore, I detach and hide.

I find the peace and quiet of my room and enjoy my own company more.

Problem with this, is that it can last a few months or more.

Most of my friends are starting to get used to seeing, that I’m either always there or not at all.

Unhealthy habits – sleep, exercise, and food.

Even this I either do in extremes or not at all.

Not to the point where its really unhealthy, but its not good either.

I go into moods, where I either sleep too much or only get 2 – 4 hours a night.

I go into periods where I hardly feel hungry or eat way too much.

Or I hardly move at all for months

This is mostly affected of my passions. If I’m too busy creating a video, or sit up way too long with my friends, or the opposite of the coin, where I sit alone, and do nothing all day. That’s where I feel tired all the time, I sleep too long and eat too much, and move too little.

So, balancing out my life has always been a hard feat.

I know myself well enough today that I know I always crave stimulation of my mind with activity.

I’m pretty sure if I wasn’t a Highly Sensitive person, and had a pretty rough past, then I would be a workaholic.

Always on the move, always working and very active.

I love being busy, but I also know that I don’t handle overstimulation well.

Being busy normally puts me in a constant feeling of overstimulation.

I really dislike being bored or not stimulated enough. It leaves me with a feeling of not accomplishing anything, and I need to do something, learn something, or create something.

So how do I find a balance between every aspect of my life, so I don’t end up doing the extreme?

Recently I’ve worked really hard on myself. I’ve realised that I still have a lot of work to do on myself.

Its funny there is always something to work on in life, and I do admit I like that.

It gives me an opportunity to grow, and it’s the main thing I constantly crave in my life.

Stagnation is hell.

The things I’ve learned so far to stop the extremes.

What I have learned over the last 6 months is that I’ve found a way to stop myself before the extreme is about to happen.

When I felt passion and a high sense of enthusiasm for my work, I caught myself realising I was working most of the day, I stopped myself in my track, wrote everything down that I wanted to work on a word page, saved it, and left my work.

I went for a walk and felt able to calm down a little.

I made dinner, and watched a movie with my mom, and went to bed.

Next morning, I woke up and continued my work.

I am proud of this feat, because normally I would continue and not stop until way to late. Realizing too late that my sleep got messed up and that I hadn’t eaten all day.

The other side of the coin.

When I find myself struggling for inspiration or motivation.

I sit down and watch something I really want to work on or learn.

I always have something I want to be better at or know more about, and thankfully you tube is a great source for me to get inspired or learn something new.

I also got myself a skillshare subscription and love the amount of knowledge I have already gotten from watching a few videos on there.

I’ve managed to stay energized, motivated, and inspired doing this, and no longer find myself stagnating.

Since I’m better at controlling my high, I don’t burn myself out as much anymore and try to control the sense of overstimulation I receive each day.

So, for the first time in my life, I’m on my way to creating balance.

I realise that its work to get there fully.

When you have taught yourself a bunch of bad habits in life its what your brain remembers and try to revert back too.

I’m in the process of rewiring my brain to stop those bad habits.

Having more balance in my life means that I’m healthier, both of mind and body, and I’ve noticed how rewarding that feels.

Why did it take me so long to work on creating balance in my life?

I honestly had no idea I could create this in my life.

I had no idea, how to do it.

It was always so frustrating to me feeling the extremes and get burned out by both.

Being disciplined has always failed me in the past. I would start trying to do something that was healthy and end up reverting back to my old routines quickly.

It wasn’t until I started reading about being a highly sensitive person, but also find videos or books on the subject of the importance of creating a good workflow and healthier life as well.

I’ve learned how to be more motivated, more inspired, when I find it hard to be.

I’ve realised my bad habits and not run away from that fact.

And most importantly what I really crave in life.

I’m no longer ashamed of feeling overwhelmed by things and I no longer allow myself to stagnate for a longer period of time.

I have again been reminded of the importance of self-reflection and seek out knowledge from likeminded people like me.

I wouldn’t have gotten to this point, if not for my amazing mentor, who motivated me to work on this area in my life.

I know I did most of the work, but he made me believe it was possible to try again.

I’m hoping in a years’ time this new habit of creating balance in my life sticks, if it doesn’t then I know ill be able to practise it in time. If I just keep working on myself and self-reflect.

By feeling balance in my life, I feel so much more fulfilled, energized, and happier than I’ve been in years.

Who knew that listening to your body and minds signals where that important 😀

Feel free to comment down below if you have had issues with balance in your life, and how you dealt with it 😊

MissFaylyn out.

Small Update

I have a lot of posts for the future I want to write about and can comfortably say that I will make a post every week.

Giving myself enough time to get inspired and write is easier now, and I intentionally save all my ideas for a later day, instead of posting them all at the same time, like I have done in the past.

It’s a little experiment of mine to see if I can keep a weekly schedule of making a new blog post, if I can do that then I’m on the way to creating a better workflow for my videos too.

I do want to admit when I feel passionate and eager to write, its hard putting in the brakes, but it’s a lot healthier for me and I reckon it will be easier with practise.

Also have a schedule, writing down every idea I have works wonders for me so far.

I went from a person who hardly remembered if today was Monday or Sunday, to loving making excel spreadsheets and writing down notes.

That to me is proof that everyone can change bad habits.

So yes, my plan for my blog is minimum one post a week.

Until then 😊