I’ve been living in a limbo of not knowing what to do with my life for years. When people asked me so what do you do? what do you dream of, what do you want to do with your life? I had no answer to give, then only thing I knew I wanted for sure is one day be able to get a dog but that was all I wanted, now if someone ask me that question I know with every fibre of who I am, what I want to do.
I want to do the same thing I am doing now.
Streaming on twitch and make videos for you tube.
I never in my wildest dreams imagined that this was my life goal, and what I wanted to do with my life, I never thought that I would be able to become more than just unemployed.
One year ago, I started streaming on twitch, 6 months ago I started taking some of my videos to you tube.
Learning how to edit and create videos, how to make emotes, how to set up my stream, make a channel video and so much more.
Research music and what music I can use.
It’s an endless learning process and I love every single second of it.
I started out streaming because I was curious. Curious to see if I could do it too, that curiosity grew to love, then to passion and then to knowing this is my life path.
Yeah it sounds crazy, a 35-year-old woman still playing games and wanting to become a streamer and content creator.
Why now? And why this?
The why now? Well 2 years ago I had no purpose I had no life dream I was drifting and lived a life in comfort, my life has for the last 10 years been about gaming, and healing from my past.
Living with my scars and learning to dream big again was my biggest challenge. Learning about who I am and what I want.
Streaming for me, and creating videos, is a way for me to be creative, to express myself and to share that with others.
When I was young, I wanted to become a writer, to share my stories with the world, and have my creativity out there. I’ve always lived in a fantasy world inside my head, and maybe that’s why I have this big love for gaming.
People climb mountains, and go sky diving, this is my thrill. Defeating big bosses on my avatar with my guild.
This is my purpose and passion.
I still have a long way to go, and I am going to try and blog more about it in the future.
I know its a long road, its not a sprint its a marathon, and it will most likely take years. Years of learning and growing as a twitch streamer and a content creator.
If I look back at this last year how much I have learned and grown already. My videos are getting better from when I first started and my twich channel is still growing, slowly but steadily and its not just my friends tuning in on my stream.
The next year or so I plan grow my brand.
MY biggest challenge to overcome yet is making a sceduale.
Being consistent has always been an issue for me, and the life style ive had, the last few years. Being able to plan has never been my strongest sides, and thats something I still need to learn.
The simplicity of getting up early in the morning and having a routine, has never been my strongest suit. Ive always been spontanous with no plans, and just do what I want to do, but to grow my channel, I have to have a routine, and times where I stream, and set time of for my editing of my videos.
so…
In the next post Im going to write more about my learning process, my plans for the future and some of the obsticles I have to go through to get my dream to come true.
One of them being to keep a sceduale, and be persistant in it.
Until next time, have a great day everyone 🙂
Missfaylyn 