My superpower is

Spirituality part 2, read previous post called intuition.

I have this superpower. I tease my boyfriend’s telling them the same stories I’m going to share today.

First my superpower lies in I can detect cheating, now to why I believe this is my superpower, and you can judge yourself what you think.

My first boyfriend.

I still remember the day as it was yesterday.

I said goodbye to him in the bus on the way home, and I still remember we kissed each other and said I love you.

He had a party to go to, and so did I with my friends.

We were supposed to meet up the next day and hang, but that night I was looking forward to going dancing with my friends.

At midnight that night, I had this feeling in my stomach that wouldn’t go away, I knew something was wrong and that tomorrow I would be crying. That something was very bad.

First, I have to explain, I never ever in my wildest imagination thought that my boyfriend would cheat on me, I never ever mistrusted him or had been jealous. We were both very honest about our feelings and both valued being honest with one another.

That night I just knew something was off. I got the feeling around midnight and looked at the time, to remember. I hoped the feeling would go away, I tried to dismiss it and to enjoy my evening out with my friends. I remember telling one of my friends, I have this feeling I can’t shake that something is wrong, I think my boyfriend did something bad.

I couldn’t shake the feeling and I couldn’t sleep after that. I remember I stayed up all night and, in the morning, I called him, he wouldn’t pick up, and it just increased my fear, I kept calling, and then I got him on the phone.

First thing I said was, I know you did something bad, and I want to know right now what it is.

He told me, he has been kissing a girl that night, and told me he was so very sorry, it wasn’t like him, but he suddenly had the feeling that he wanted to kiss her, and that he realized he was too young to be in a committed relationship. We were only 19 so I got it, and it hadn’t been an easy year, but my heart broke there and then.

I was also shocked that I knew. I had no reason to predict this would happen. I would never have had a clue. There were no tell signs, that he wasn’t happy, that he would cheat on me. He wasn’t that person.

But it had happened.

Second boyfriend:

Several years passed and I didn’t think about my intuition for years.

I was 7 months pregnant, and I was at home when my boyfriend was out with his friends, and I suddenly saw pictures inside my head. It came from nowhere and it knocked the air out of my chest. It was a bit blurry, but it was of my boyfriend kissing another girl.

Same thing happened again, and I was feeling frantic. Not again.

I knew with every fiber that it was true and the next hours was misery. Next day I got confirmation, he had cheated on me with the girl I had seen in a vision like state. I had no reason again to think this was going to happen. We did have a turbulent relationship. I was feeling depressed and he wasn’t himself, but we had just gotten engaged a month prior to this.

The first thing I remember saying to him when I got him on the phone was, you kissed a girl didn’t you?  And he had.

Same boyfriend a year after.

We had gotten back together, for our daughters sake, and I had finally forgiven him for the major deceit. The heartbreak had healed, and I was trusting him again. We weren’t living together, wanted to take it slow, but we saw each other on a frequent basis. One night I had the feeling again. Pictures again, this time more detailed. It’s like when you close your eyes, but you see pictures rolling inside your head so fast that it’s hard to keep up.

I saw him in bed, with another girl, she was blond. I saw the spreadsheet, all rolled up, them underneath it, the condoms I had gotten him on the nightstand. I even saw some of the clothes she had been wearing.

It scared me seeing this, and I hoped it wasn’t true.

Next day, he came over to see me and my daughter, and I remember telling him I wanted to talk to him, so we went for a walk.

I was calm, but inside I was so scared, that what I had seen was true. I didn’t want it to be true, not again. The last time it really hurt being cheated on, and I wasn’t ready for it again.

I remember saying. I know you cheated on me last night, I know she had blonde hair, I saw her clothes and really bob, let’s just call him bob for privacy reasons, You used the condoms I bought you as well? Please tell me it isn’t true.

He stopped and looked at me shocked, and in that moment, I knew, it was all true. It had happened.

He told me that it was true, and I asked him about the details, and every detail I had given was what had happened. Our condoms, she was blonde, and it was in his bed.

3^rd boyfriend:

Years had passed, and I was in a new relationship. This time, it was with a guy from Scotland and we had been together for 4 – 5 years. We both sat in different rooms and played the computer. During the day we would go into each other to talk a little bit. I had told him my experience with my ex’s and being cheated on and he had promised me that he would never do this to me.

That night I went to bed, kissed him goodnight, said I love you.

I had a dream; it was so vivid. I dreamt about Texas and him wanting to go see a girl there, I dreamt she came here, and they started flirting in front of me, he was telling me in my dream that he wanted to go live with her.

When I woke up, first thing I said, was.

“You son of a B…., you cheated on me last night”

He looked at me with shock and said no. I didn’t stop I called him out and said I know its true, I had a dream.

And after a while he said it was true, he has been flirting with a girl from a Texas and they had been talking about going to see each other, both realizing they had feelings for one and another.

That was the last time I had any experiences like this, but after it had happened with accuracy 4 times, I have faith in my intuition. I still don’t know what it is, I can’t explain it with any science that I know of.  Believe me I’ve tried to understand why my intuition is so accurate, to show me pictures and details.

I have faith in that my intuition lets me in on the truth. I think if I hadn’t known about my boyfriend’s cheating until maybe months after it would have hurt so much more. Going through a betrayal like that, it hurts, and it’s hard to trust anyone again, but because I have this superpower I feel more at ease, somehow, I have faith in that I will know if it happens again, and because of that its easier for me to trust.

Either case, being cheated on is hurtful, and I cant imagine how I would feel if I had been deceived for months on end, and not know. I am thankful that my intuition protects me in that sense.

I do hope the last time was the last time ill ever experience being cheated on again, if not I know my intuition will let me know the second it happens.

Whats your super power ? 🙂

Next up Ghosts, part 3 of my spirituality blog.