Intuition

Spirituality – Part 1 Intuition

In this blog post I will write 3 parts.

This blog post was inspired of a friends blog, she wrote an amazing post about spirituality, and it inspired me to tell my story with my spirituality.

Thank you Chloe 🙂

I was raised to believe in spirituality. Both my mom and my father are spiritual.

My mom comes from a gypsy line where spirituality is a part of daily life.

Believing in what you can’t see with the naked eyed. Spirits, reading the future, intuition is all part of the gypsy culture.

On my dads’ side, he is more scientific inclined, but he told me of several events that he can’t explain with science but that he swears that he experienced.

Growing up I’ve always had a very strong intuition. I always felt I knew things without being able to explain it. I had frequent Déjà vu moments, dreams that came true, and I could sense things.

My friends knew that I had a spiritual background, being gypsy and they would sometimes tease me to tell their future.

I remember one night at my friends house, we where us 3 girls, teenagers, just giggling most of the night until one of us brought in a set of cards, and I thought it could be fun to try and read them their future so I did.

Out of nothing I started reading what I saw in the cards. Telling them about events that would unfold in their near future, detailed descriptions. I still remember that feeling I had, that I just knew. It was like I wasn’t in control of my words, they just came out, and I was even surprised of what I said.

It was my first time trying this and was mostly meant as a joke, but everything I had said came true. Within the next 24 hours, and it was things I wouldn’t have been able to predict with any scientific explanation.

This wouldn’t be the last time I had an experience like that.

Intuition:

Maybe its me being a highly sensitive person, with what they call depth of processing. Sensing subtleties in my surroundings that normally isn’t noticed by everyone else.

But my intuition has always been a guide to me. That gut feeling that something isn’t being said or that something is off.

I have because of my upbringing always learned to listen to that gut feeling, and I feel it has directed me to the truth.

Growing up until today I sense things, its subtle things, and I try to not dig deeper into the things I sense.

I feel after my many experiences with my intuition that I intrude on people’s privacy and that it wasn’t something that they wanted me to be aware off. I can feel when my friends are in love but hasn’t said it yet or even noticed. There was one time I was the first to notice a friend of mine was starting to have strong feelings for someone, and I told her, I thought it was great, but it was news to her. She hadn’t acknowledged those feelings yet, and I felt I had stepped over a line. Its hard to explain but I have several examples like that, over the years. It might just be me being highly sensitive, and having a strong intuition, but I still feel I know things that isn’t my place to know yet.

I remember from my times in town, I was out a lot around strangers, and going up to the bar or walking past someone, I would suddenly have a feeling I knew wasn’t my own, it was overwhelming to the point it scared me. I would feel anger all the sudden and 10 secs after, a guy with punch someone outside. Or I would feel intense feeling of love, and then this girl would walk over to her friend and tell her how in love she was.

It sounds simple when I describe it but the feeling I had, was so intense. I knew it wasn’t my feeling and the feeling of sudden anger, sadness or feeling in love would go away the minute I walked outside. I would feel like myself again, slightly more confused over what had just happened.

It went on for months and I felt it was getting out of control, I was in a very bad place in my life and I felt scared I was losing my mind. I said to myself I need to figure out how to stop this, and I had 2 choices, go see my doctor and tell him what I was feeling or go down to a newly opened spiritual house my dad asked me to go visit.

I was terrified of telling my doctor about this, I was scared he was going to tell me I was crazy. I felt I was going crazy.

I have never been spiritual in the same sense my family is, I do try to understand everything from a scientific point a view, but I couldn’t explain this.

I visited the spiritual house with my dad, and it was a place for people to practice the art of clairvoyance.

Now how do you practice that you might ask? It was simple, with intuition, learning how to listen to that voice inside you, and just say what’s on your mind. That’s what I learned.

Anyway, I told them my story, at the house, and I was told that if I went there every week, I would be able to learn how to control it, and if I wanted to, close it down.

I didn’t have a lot of faith in it to begin with but I after a while I learned it worked. I learned how to meditate, and how to close myself down.

What I was explained was that I was highly attuned to my intuition and I was getting signals, because I was open. It was normal if you were in bad place in your life to be a little more attuned to the paranormal, and that’s why I was feeling everything so intensely.

It wasn’t just people’s feelings that I felt during that time, I had also had a few encounters that I still can’t explain. A feeling when you go into a house and something bad happened there, or seeing shapes you cant explain. Some bad mojo, I had this feeling once in a church, I’ve never felt more scared then to be in that church, it just felt really bad. I couldn’t wait to get out of there, and the second I was outside the bad feeling went away in an instant.

I had another moment, just before me and my friends where sitting in a car to drive into town, of fear. I told my friend the driver before he even sat in the car, to please drive carefully. He told me to not worry he had never had any accidents, but the feeling wouldn’t go away and not 5 mins later we crashed the car. It was frosty that night and it was slippery, and he had lost control a second and we had hit a lamp post. The second we crashed the first thing I said was I knew it. It just slipped out. None of us where injured that night but the car was scrap at that point, couldn’t be salvaged.

Things like this, happened so often, and I couldn’t explain why, and that’s why I kept going to that spiritual place. I didn’t go because I wanted to become a clairvoyant or really believed in it, I just wanted to stop knowing things before it happened or stop feeling what other people felt.

I still don’t know what to believe so many years after. I don’t practice what I learned back then anymore, my intuition isn’t as strong as it used to be, because I feel I can control it better now. Being able to dismiss what I feel or sense and keep myself a little more oblivious to what I sense around me, it has given me a sense of peace.

When it really matters, I still feel things and when its important I listen.

I still have a friend that strongly believe I can tell fortunes, and she asks me to tell her fortune every time we go out to drink, and I do it as a party trick for fun, but she still swears that its true.

All I do is I get pictures, feelings when I hold an object or someone’s hand. I listen to the voice within and let it take over, and suddenly I’m saying things, that isn’t really me talking. Its not at all scientific and maybe its just intuition.

What they said at the spiritual house when they explained what spirituality is. It was simple.

Its being able to read energies, and everyone can do it, if they hone the skill enough. For them it was a science. It wasn’t about praying to any deities or sacrifice; it was just being able to read intuition and learning how to listen to the voice that everyone of us has within.

What does your intuition tell you ?

Do you listen to yours?

Part two is next up..

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