Dont THINK, just DO.

So being brave despite fearing a negative result is easier than I expected.

For years I wanted to do something that matters to me, but I feared failing, so I didn’t.

Being a streamer, and starting a blog was all unreachable dreams, that my fear held me back from.

In my mind, I kept thinking.

What if no one reads what I write, what if no one see my videos.

So many what ifs, going through my mind, and none of it was positive thoughts.

So, what changed?

Well I made myself a promise last year. The promise was, if you are scared and your fear is holding you back from acting, then stop thinking and just do.

Take the leap and see what happens.

You can’t fear something that hasn’t happened yet.

So, I took the leap.

I still remember the day I installed stream labs on my computer, and I sat starring at this new program and thought to myself “Holy this looks complicated”

I got some help from a friend of mine that had suggested stream labs to me, and suddenly I was live.

The feeling I had when I first turned on my stream was relief that I had done something that I had feared for so long. The world didn’t come crashing down on me. I felt joy sharing it with my friends, and in that moment I felt proud. I had done it.

I could have stopped streaming after that and still had the feeling “I did it”.

Its like when you jump into the water for the first time learning how to swim, its scary but when you make the jump it fills you with excitement, and joy that you made the jump.

And you realize it didn’t kill you.

So how did streaming one day turn into “I want to do this for a living” one day.

Waking up in the morning and feel like I have a purpose is the best feeling, especially since I’ve felt the opposite for years now.

Waking up with no purpose, no plans and nothing to do.

I was only dreaming about streaming before. That if I was a different person, I could be a streamer, or blogger or you tuber.

The naysayer inside your head. The voice that tells you, that you are stupid to dream big and that it won’t happen for you, was the only voice I heard when I thought about my dreams.

Yes, it’s a big dream to have, but I won’t succeed if I don’t try, and fail and try again.

The most important thing for me when I do this is that its in my own pace and that I enjoy what I do, and so far, I’m loving every second of it.

From streaming that first day to now, a lot has changed.

I didn’t realize back then how much work you need to do, and I still have a long way to go.

Since then, I’ve gotten myself another screen, when you stream on twitch its important that you engage with your viewers, and when you only have one monitor you have to tab out of your game to see chat a lot. It wasn’t optimal.

Now that I have my second screen it’s a lot easier.

I’ve also been looking up how to make videos and post them on you tube, getting programs installed I’ve never heard of.

Programs like Vegas pro, Photoshop and then having to learn how to use it.

There is a lot of work behind streaming, and I’m still working on that plan for the near future.

What you need is content to stream, and then work on having a schedule, if you plan to put your videos on you tube you must edit them and then post them on you tube.

I recently learned about thumbnails and how important they are for you tube videos. The better your thumbnail looks the more viewers you might get.

But it’s the content that’s the most important bit.

You have to think about how you feel that day, if you stream and if you are in a bad mood, it’s not going to be a good stream, you have to be in the right mind set to do it.

Every step I make every day is forward, yeah there are a few roadblocks, and a big upward hill ahead but its all moving forward with something I love, and the challenge from doing it and conquering those challenges feels amazing.

I wish I could tell my past self to just make the jump and do the things I feared.

Its not about how it ends, its about trying, and doing it.

In 10 years from now I might find out it wasn’t for me, but I won’t have to look back and say I didn’t try, and that’s what matters to me.

If you have dreams like that, my advice is just, go for it.

What is the worst that can happen, and if it happens then what?

Will it kill you?

What will you lose from doing it?

What would you gain?

When I ask myself these questions my answer to it is.

The worst that can happen is that I get stuck in my process. Not getting any viewers, my reply to that thought in my head is.

Then I just figure out how to turn it around and do something different than I was doing before. Work more on my content I’m putting out, and make it better

Will it kill me? No, it won’t

What will I lose? Time is the only thing I can think of, but since I love what I’m doing that’s not a bad thing, since I get to spend that time doing something I love, which is better than doing nothing.

What will I gain?

The things I’ve already gained. Feeling proud of myself, having a purpose, learning new things, and becoming better at it.

So everyone out there reading this, don’t think just do, you wont know how it goes until you make that jump, and follow your dreams.

So what if you have big dreams, if you work at it, they might stop being dreams and come true, but you wont know until you make the jump.

Have a nice evening everyone. I got some more streaming to do tonight